Let me start off by saying I love my day job. That is, being a mom, of course. It’s also my night job, my weekend job and even my holiday job. And yes, I love it. Like I have mentioned before, my husbands work has him out of town, state, and even country well over half of the time so it’s my boys and I holding down the fort.

We try hard not to lose our minds and figure out things to do and quite frankly, we are sick of each other. They are over me, in their faces all day everyday and I’m done with the clothes on every surface of the house, objects being constantly thrown across the living room or the baby’s toys being used as soccer balls. Just, stop!

But needless to say, we also don’t know what we’d do if it were any different. I don’t fully agree with the saying “Mommin’ aint easy” because I feel the opposite. To me, it is easy. Stinky, trying, repetitive, hilarious, fun, sad, and yes, easy. Am I a perfect mom? Pffftttt, NO. Not by any means. I yell, I leave the house dirty, we eat out, homework and school projects are sometimes done last minute, I expect more of my boys when they are already giving me their best. I mean, I could give a million examples why but you get the picture.

I also force my kids to cuddle with me, I yell ‘I love you’ obnoxiously loud multiple times a day, I play with them, we roast each other, we laugh until I cry, we do movie nights, and I constantly remind them that I made those booty cheeks and I can pinch ’em if I feel the need. Easy. Loving them is easy. Having fun with them is easy. Disciplining them is easy. Feeding them has even become easy because they aren’t picky little tyrants any more. Life is easy with my boys and as a mom.

Would I ever want to be a better mom? Sure. I feel I become a better mom everyday.  But perfect? Never.

Lately, we’ve made a few Disneyland Resort trips; Which is and will always be one of our favorite things.

Back and fourth to Valley Children’s Hospital for Zander’s treatment.

Science projects and school work.

The usual. Our usual.

I look at days like today where I haven’t gotten any sleep but Kannyn’s smile still lights up my heart more than yesterday and I realize just how lucky I am to have these boys, even though they’re sometimes ornery, this house though dirty, all of our things even though they are never put away, food to eat even though I may not have cooked it, and the family and love that surrounds it all. This is our love. My love. Love.

Being a mother is learning about strengths you didn’t know you had, and dealing with fears you didn’t know existed.- Linda Wooten

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